A New Beginning....

A new beginning..

Umm..I have no clue what that is? , Perhaps, made me sit down and think that i should actually be here and write on. It’s may be the thought which struck me some time ago that I need to understand my other side better, which most of the time, is in some dreamy world, lost into some unimaginable planet and being unreal ( I somehow like it when I am all by myself and there is complete subtle ecstasy  inside me that no one can listen or see what I am feeling and doing). 

I think I am being too self engrossed into the fact which bothers everyone (my family and my friends at least) that what's next for me? I am not even close to the choices I have set for myself that I what I really want to do. It’s like this Million dollar question for the final year students..WHAT’S NEXT? Aren’t the exams enough right now to haunt you and give you sleepless night (That reminds me that the date sheet is out and my exams being in exactly 24 days ! ) it does hits me hard when I get rejections mails from companies( though its easy to believe that something’s even better is waiting for me, ITS NOT!)..It’s like the two minds are playing inside me with the one always trying to suppress the other. May be either of the one sought to whisper that I should try a hand on what is actually going inside you. !aha..Its sounds all psychic stuff but then it’s not always that you tend to go by the insight idea which you would otherwise ignore and put into the sub-conscious mind (sounds even more psycho now)..To a person like me who has always been agreeable to the idea of not posting the real side, it takes a great deal on coming up and getting my fingers set on the keyboard and my thoughts which are otherwise left to me and my lost world. I don’t know if it happens to all of us that sometimes you really would want to make an attempt to know yourself just to get that precise quantum of positivity  within yourself and perhaps that’s what got me on to this forum.

A typical life is a final year student in college (sometimes a school) really is dominant with the very notion of you better start preparing for 'Masters' or get a high profiled 'Job'. Sigh! It’s really not that easy when you just want to enjoy and have fun because duhh!! It’s the ‘Final year’! It starts on with the early morning class, which i everyday make it to just on time. Each morning when i enter through main gate it gives me that immense satisfaction about being here and being close to it now, the main corridor, classrooms, Cafe', lawns , the princi’s office( to which i happen to be a regular visitor in some recent times)..None the less...when you break the trends followed by seniors then u got to be ready to face the authorities.!A day besides classes (which we have to attend with the continuous motivation and force able deed, blink**, FINAL year)...Goes around with friends and each day seems to be a memory filling into the times spend where we just entered and happen to leave in some bit. 

In the thoughts of it, i sign off and would probably catch up on books now..

Cyaio... !!